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2005-01-23T20:39:00.000-08:00

So, Big White was ok. Not the best though, seeing as though Jodi and I were blown off pretty much the whole time, plus I twisted my ankle half way down the bunny hill. I finally told Laura off on Monday, just because I was so frusterated with her. Of course she made up some lame excuse though... Anyways, this weekend was a lot of fun, I went up with Real Life youth group and like five other youths to Canada. Although we were kind of the odd ones out, it was still a fun weekend. I feel a lot less stressed now that most my government stuff is done, all I have to do is go to a school board meeting on Thursday night. I'm looking forward to next semester, this is what it should look like:
Blue Day
Study Skills
Child Development
Health
Creative Writing
Gold Day
Orchestra
English(My math and English might flip around)
Math
Internship
It should be a good second semester, hopefully...

Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's prayingKneeling at the edge of her bed

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she crys

And she says take me away
And take me fartherSurround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me nowAnd hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me nowAnd hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water
Big and Rich "Holy Water"

2005-01-10T20:55:00.000-08:00

*Sigh* Another boring day in the single life of me... Not really much to tell, I'm still mad at Laura, especially because she acted like nothing was wrong when she called me on Sunday, plus I was ignored pretty much the whole period again. On a lighter note, Big White is this weekend! I'm really excited, but I'll be more excited when I get my community service done for government class, because I'm really stressed out about it. It really sucks that we have to get everything signed off before we do it, otherwise I would have gotten a lot of this stuff done... Anyways, bettter go.

2005-01-07T20:08:00.000-08:00

I'm so unbelievibly ticked off that I can barely think straight. So we're doing this thing in Child Development were we bring in kids and make snacks with them. And so I decided to be in a group with Laura, Krissy, and Julia. Not only was I ignored half the period before we got into our group, but they wouldnt agree on anything I suggested and only wanted to make cookies which I think is STUPID and BORING, because not only are the kids not as involved, I for one don't want to make cookies. I suggested making "Frogs on a log" (Celary sticks with peanut butter and raisins) because the kids could do it themselves, and Laura's like "I don't like celary," and I was like "Well it doesnt really matter if you like it, because other people might," and she's like "Well i dont want to make something I dont like, would you?" "Plus Ian already has made cookies before," and so finally I gave up and was like, "Fine you know what? Make whatever the hell you want, because I dont care anymore, obviously you wont agree on anything," and Juliagoes "We're making cookies," So, you know what? Fine they can make cookies, but they better not be expecting me to help or Derek if he comes, because as Laura would say "I dont want to make something I don't feel like making," So they can kiss my ass. It's not just this that has me really ticked, it's the fact that everything I do, try to do, or want to do, Laura wants to do. For instince, I've wanted to work at the library a really, really, long time, and oh but of course Laura does too. So I purposely became interested in working at Family Christian Stores with Jodi, but, what do you know? Laura might apply. I get bangs... Laura gets bangs. I liked Ben briefly(guy from youth group, but hes like 20) and now Jodi likes him which is fine because I like Casey, but... I have a feeling Laura likes him too, Jodi having the same speculation. I just know some way or another she'll have a class with Casey next semester and start liking him. It's like my fate or something. Next thing I know, she'll be eatting lunch with my mom, acting as though she's my mom's daughter, and she'll be going out with Casey. That or she'll take Jodi's job at FCS(Family Christian Stores), and start dating Ben. And you know what? I can't wait until next semester, because I'll only have one class with her, and maybe lunch. *Sigh* I just got off the phone with Ryan though, spilling all of this out, so I feel a LOT better...

2004-12-21T22:58:00.000-08:00

Wow, I haven't written in a really long time... Not that it really matters seeing as though no one comes to my blog anyways... Yay winter break! A break from school at last! School... it's going ok. Nothing new with the Casey thing... Course nothing real exciting happens in my life. Right now I'm listening to Switchfoot "This is your life", and "More than fine," both of which remind me of my life... I'll write the lyrics to them, not that anyone cares...

This is your life

Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
This is your life and today is all you've got now
Yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, are you who you want to be
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
This is your life are you who you want to be
This is your life are you who you want to be, yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be, who you want to be yeah
This is your life, are you who you want to be (who you want to be)
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
And you had everything to lose

More than Fine

When I wake in the morning
I want to blow into pieces
I want more than just ok, more than just ok
When I'm up with the sunrise
I want more than just the blue skies
I want more than just ok, more than just ok
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not givin' up now
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not backing down
More than fine, more than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just ok
When I'm wet with the sunshine
I want more than just a good time
I want more than just ok, more than just ok. Ok
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, not givin' up now
I'm not givin' up, givin' up, I'm not selling out
More than fine, more than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just ok
More than fine, more than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just ok. Ok
More than oceans away from the dawn
More than oceans away from the dawn
More than oceans away from who we are
More than oceans, more than oceans, yeah
More than fine, more than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just ok, ok ok ok fine
More than bent on getting by
More than fine, more than just ok. Ok

The first part of "More than fine" is really how I feel... I really would just like to blow into pieces most the time... It's like, I'm never truly happy, its just a cover up. *Sigh* I doubt anyone will call me over break... Maybe Jodi, but she's working most the break.

2004-11-30T20:41:00.000-08:00

Once again I will write about the boring life of me... Pretty much no progress on the Casey thing. Cory on the other hand... I've given up on the indesicive bastard. Honestly, I talked to him about what we are and blah blah, and half of his answers were "I don't know," So basically the conversation was pointless. Hey on the bright side, I've boosted my D's to C's and C+'s so thats good. Laura's starting to bug me again, for awhile she was ok, but now she's starting to get to me again, I don't know, maybe it's just because I'm cranky, but it's so freaking annoying. Other than that, I'm starting to think I'm destined to be single. Seriously, all of the women in my family, (at least immediate family) had boyfriends by junior year, and then got married to them, or are going to. Yeah, hasn't happened yet! I realize I have next semester as well, but still, it's really depressing... Sigh. I'm going to go sleep now, not that anyone really cares, seeing as though no one comes to my blog nor cares enough to.

2004-11-18T21:22:00.000-08:00

ARG! I'm so freaking confused over this whole Casey v. Cory thing! I don't know who to choose honestly. Cory told Marlena that he's going to try to get me to like him again. And I still like Casey, but I don't know if he likes me or is even remotely interested in me. And Cory just sends me mixed signals, one minute he seems to like me, the next he doesn't. Arg. So tomorrow, I'm just going to sit him down, and be like "What are we?" you know and see what he says, obviously writing a note will not work, learning from last year. So I just have to flat out ask him, otherwise I'll be stuck in confusion-land. At the same time, I think I should back off Casey a little, and let him come to me more. I think he kind of suspects something and is backing off... *sigh* Anyways, I'll most likely write tomorrow...

2004-11-13T22:25:00.000-08:00

*Sigh* Same old, same old. Friday was a pretty good day though. So, I think I like a guy in my English class. The thing is though, I'm not sure if I like Cory still...(or if I even did) So I don't know who to pick and who I might actually have a chance with... Anyways, back to Friday, Casey(the guy in English) and I always end up talking to each other, and yeah we have a lot in common, and he's really sweet. Laura completely ditched me on the way to lunch, but I didn't really care, cause I was talking and walking with Casey. hehe. So when I got to lunch, I was sort of in a daze, and I told Jodi about him and she's like "After I eat we're going to talk and walk," so as soon as we started walking she goes, "Casey," and I just started laughing and explained the whole thing. Anyways, hopefully Casey and I will go somewhere, seeing as though Cory and I aren't really going anywhere... I'll keep ya posted. Until then...

2004-11-11T20:59:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm actually posting! Wow... *Sigh* Not a whole lot going on, hence why I never post. The boring life of me seems to be worsening... Still single, unfortunately... I don't know if I'll ever get a boyfriend at this rate... Other than that, Laura has been driving me INSANE lately. I feel like a shadow in Child Development with her, like I'll try to tell everyone something, and no one will be listening. I almost started crying at lunch, I haven't been feeling great, and I'm just kind of lonely I guess. My only real good friend is Jodi anymore, which is fine with me, because Jodi doesn't drive me insane. Maybe I should take a vow of silence? I don't think anyone would notice or care, except for Jodi and maybe Cory and Marlena, (take notice in the maybe). I'm pretty much seen as the shy, quiet girl who does her homework in my classes. *Sigh* that's all I feel like saying for now...

2004-10-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

I know, I know. I haven't posted in FOREVER! I feel like a loser haha. Anyways, I've been completely spacing posting. Not a whole lot going on right now, busy. Mr. Dyvig my orchestra teacher is deciding to be a practice journal nazi, and give us one once a week... grrr. Other than that, swimming is still going, one more meet left, and then league and districs. I'm having a lot of fun on the team, it's an awesome experience. School, school, school. School's going alright, I like most of my classes. I have Cory in my first period, and I think I like him, (again) but I don't know, just because of the whole thing last year, I don't know if I want to like him again... Aside from that, I'm cutting all my hair off after homecoming, (oct. 30). I'll try to post a before and after picture, but only if I can get it to work haha. Anyways, that's about all that's happening right now, I'll try to post more often!

2004-08-21T22:53:00.000-07:00

So, guess who has her license!? ME!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy I passed! I was so freaking nervous before my drive... I thought I was going to pass out or something... But it all got better once I got in the car. Sorry those of you who havent been hearing from me lately, my AIM and email were not working, but they're working now so I'm happy! Anyways, not much else happened today... Talk to ya'll later!!!

2004-08-16T12:46:00.000-07:00

Hello all! So, Saturday was a blast! My friends and I threw a surprise party for our friend Laura, she had no clue, so it was so much fun. We went to the water slides, and then out to Chihuahuas for dinner. After that, we went back to her house for cake, icecream, and presents, and then we watched movies until like 3:00am, and then we all squeezed into her tent and stayed up until 4:30 talking. Rachel and Steve went home yesterday, and I watched some of the Olympics, and drove around my car with Rachel for awhile, and that was pretty much my weekend.

2004-08-13T21:01:00.000-07:00

Wow! I had SUCH a fun day! I went to the DOL and took my written, and passed only missing two! (even though it was my third time taking it), then we got some lunch, and went to the pool for awhile, and then hung out at home for awhile. My mom called and said she was bringing home crab and was going to need some help getting it out of the car, and so Rach was like "Hey Jess you want to help me?" and I was like, "Not really," but went with her, and I saw this car in our driveway, and I was like "Who's car is that?" and my mom goes, "Who do you think?" and I said, "Mine?" and she's like "Yes, thats your car," I started jumping up and down! It's a 98 Chevy Cavalier, and its a sunset orange/red. I love it. I put my fuzzy dice and air freshener in it already and then Rach, Steve and I took it for a drive! Anyways, I had an awesome day! Hope you guys are all well!

2004-08-10T21:50:00.000-07:00

Hey all! Another boring day as the life of me! For some reason, I got up at 8:30 this morning. Anyway, my day was SO uneventful! I played Nintendo for awhile, bummed around on the computer. I should have done laundry, but I forgot. Oh well. If any of you want to see where I went to camp, here's the link, www.questnet.ca hopefully they'll get some more pics up! So, I"m taking the written tomorrow for my license! Wish me luck!

2004-08-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

So, I'm back from Saskachewan! Sorry I didn't post, but I was at camp most the time, so yeah. I had a blast though! It was so much more fun than I thought it would be! The first week, I just got to do pretty much whatever I wanted, and then the second week my oldest cousin and I worked in the kitchen, which was awesome! The dishpit and the kitchen had a towel fight! It was so much fun, even if I ended up with huge welts, hehe. I was really sad to leave camp, I was crying on my last day. The people there are awesome, and I'll miss them. But, hopefully my aunt and uncle won't move and I'll be able to come back next year.

2004-07-22T15:00:00.000-07:00

Hey there! It's Thursday already wow! Tomorrow, I'll be waking up at about 3:00 to leave the house around 4:00 to go up to Canada to catch my 6:30 flight to Sakachewen! What GREAT fun, hehe not! This time I have to remember not to drink anything dairy before I get on the plane, last time, when I was flying home from Chicago I got really sick from drinking a moca. But just the thought of milk makes me want to gag, so if I do drink any dairy I'll take a lactate. Anyways, pretty boring day, about to do some loundry for my trip, and then I'll pack tonight, and try to go to bed early to wake up at 3:00 to shower and get ready to go! My cusin's are all excited I'm coming, so, hopefully it will be a fun visit. I'll try to avoid any walls Laura! Love you all and like I said, I'll try to email and post when I can! :)

2004-07-21T10:58:00.000-07:00

Hey there all, it's Wednsday! Yay! That means youth group! It will be my last youth group for awhile since I'm leaving for Canada on Friday. My cusin might go to youth though, so maybe I'll get to go with her. I'll try to post when I'm gone, but I think we're going to camp so I might not be able to for awhile, but I really don't know what we're doing, so I'll post when I can. It looks like today is going to be another boring day, parents at work like always, so I'll end up just sitting around. Hope you're guys' days are good!

2004-07-20T20:43:00.000-07:00

Wow! I haven't wrote anything on here for a long time! I fixed it a lot, I didn't like the colors I had on my other Blog, and I like Harry Potter hehe. I'll try to use this more! Anyways, not much going on lately, my birthday was last Thursday, and I'm leaving for my cusin's on Friday and will be gone for two weeks, I'll try to post though, if I have some free time. So, I kinda like this guy from youth, but I don't really know, cause I don't know him that well, but he's really sweet. His name's Kyle, aka Yogi, and yeah. Hope you guys like my new and improved site!!

2004-05-20T21:22:00.000-07:00

Oh my gosh, I haven't written anything on here for so long! Well, I guess that's cause I can't figure out this site that well, I need Maggie to help me, cause I don't like it that much, Anyways, not much lately that's been going on, I like Cory Brown, he's a real sweetie, and Ryan talked to him and he told Ryan he liked me too, so AHHH! hehe..

2004-03-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

Well, Tolo was fun, except stupid Keather messed stuff up... Everything got better once we left the dance and went to Applebees though. That was fun we had like 4 strawberry dackeries each virgin of course, and yeah it was fun. I hope "Patty" likes me... I'm so mad, I had to miss creative writing, my favorite class for some stupid orchestra thing, which means I didn't see Patty at all today. :'( Anyways, that's about all I got to say... lol

2004-03-05T22:21:00.000-08:00

Well guys, I finally figured this thing out! Yay for me! Not much is going on right now, I am going to Tolo tomorrow with a cool guy named Patrick, or "Patty" as Maggie calls him. I actually had enough guts to ask him! I'm really nervous though because I have never been on a date or to a formal high school dance. I'm suprised he said yes, but very glad too. Anyways that's about all, I'm sooo glad it's the weekend, I finally get to sleep in... Anyways bye for now! : )

2004-03-05T21:17:00.000-08:00

Hey! Well, here's my web page thingy, woo hoo! I know there's not much on here yet but yeah...